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2005-12-06T17:23:00.000-08:00

"Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes...just be an illusion."

2005-12-05T21:33:00.000-08:00

Think things starting to get better. Just thinking only. Maybe some are good while some are bad. But all of them are in a messed up and complicated ways. Not sure whether its something to jump about for or even cry for it. Anyway things all start to show. Bit by bit. Slowly as days come nearer. haha. Dont know what i'm talking bout. Think i'm the only one undestanding this entry. Niway its better that way rather than people keep asking me what is wrong with me. I'm okay k people. Yup. So dont ask.

Was feeling moody today. the whole day. It just comes. I'm not sure why or even how. It just comes. If i'm a girl, at least i have an excuse. Time of the month maybe? But too bad i'm a guy. Lotsa things happenin. what do yuou expect.

Just realised that lotsa things to be done and lotsa things that need to be put aside. Things like my:
EFMA project which is due this fri, yet to get started. Starting tml after skewl.
ICT project. Got this one done with terry and leon. So forget bout that. Considered that done.
International Cross cultural Project, which is due on this thursdaY with a presentation. Only halfway through. Info all done except publishing it on a web page. Somebody help me! haha.
Business Finance tutl and project. Damn blur bout tml tutl. think just leave it blank. again. Project is due next week. So put that aside first. Concentrate on whats more important.
Intro to SW. got a project du on week 14. long way to go
Marketing mgt too..

Things that need to be put aside till all being done...
all that things that have been happeining and bothering me. all those feelings. putting all that aside for now.

Telling myself that i have to buck up for my studies. I MUST. think i'm neglecting my studies already. cannot be that way. less of going out more of sitting down and doing revision and tutl. Changeover. gonna do some soul searching and stuff. Do what i've come to poly for. ya. haha...

Starting skewl tml at 11. going for only one hour of lesson. Sianz.... then go on with the things that need to be donw. staying back till late. Not gonna ride tml. Just wanna spend time with the environment once again. wanna get that feeling back. haha...so fun!

haiya....think i better get down for my stuffs.... see ya

2005-12-05T17:08:00.001-08:00

Friendship is a strange thing.
We find ourselves telling each other the deepest details of our lives... things we don't even share with the families who raised us.
But what is a friend? A confidant? A shoulder to cry on? An ear to listen? A heart to feel? A friend is all these ... and more.
No matter where we met, no matter how long we've been together... I call you friend.
A word so small, yet so large in feeling, a word filled with emotion, a word overflowing with love. Truly great things come in small packages.
Once the package of friendship has been opened, it can never be closed. It is a constant book always waiting... waiting to be read... and enjoyed.
We may have our disagreements... we may have our disappointments ...we may argue ...we may have concern for one another...friendship is a unique bond that lasts through all tribulations.
A part of each of us goes into our friendships ... our humor ... our experiences... our tears.
Friendships are foundations... necessary for life... and love. Friends .. you and me ... you brought another friend and then we were three ... we started our group ...our circle of friends... there is no beginning .. there is no end.
Sometimes God wants us to meet many wrong people So that when the right one comes along, we will appreciate that person more.

2005-12-05T17:08:00.000-08:00

There was this guy who loved two gals at the same time but he didn't know which one he loved more.
Someone taught him.
Ask yourself this question and answer it honestly :
"When you are happy, which gal would you want to share your happiness with?" The one you think of is someone you love.
Ask yourself another question and answer it honestly :
"When you are sad, which gal you want to share your burden with?" The one you think of is also someone you love.
If you think of the same gal when you are happy & sad, that's the most perfect. But if you don't think of the same gal, I would advise you to chose the one you are willing to share your sadness with.
In life, there are more sorrows than happiness. There are too many people that u meet that u can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover.
If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone. In sadness, however, there are not many people willing to share your burden with you. If you are willing to tell someone your happiness, I am sure that person has got to be someone close & an understanding person to you.
But it shouldn't stop there. If that person only thinks of you when she is happy, but looks for someone else when she is sad, this lover is too unstable, she doesn't treat you as someone she can spend the rest of her life with.
Of course, I will be very happy if I am the first person to share her happiness. But, if she is sad, I will be too willing to stay by her side & ease her pain. Only then, will I believe that I hold a very important position in her heart.
If you are sad, who comes to your mind first?

2005-11-30T23:30:00.000-08:00

I'm so not myself these few days...
Whats happening to me? Sometimes i can be at the top of the world... Sometimes i can even be at my deepest pit.. Sometimes i just lose my soul, I'm there but yet again i'm not there spiritually.. Things happening all around me. Trying so hard to cover up all this when i'm with the rest.. Just wanna let you guys know that i'm okay. Still making noise, still jumping around... Still laughing and talking crap. Trying not to be quiet or silent. Just afraid to be questioned and stuff cause i dont know what to answer toi those qns... i really dont..

Sometimes i really hope theres someone out there who wanna volunteer to lend me a listening ear and just stay there with me even though i'm beinng quiet. Just be there. Maybe i just need it. No point i ride so fast, speeding from one point of the expressway to the other just to let go all these feelings. What if soemthing bad happened unexpectedly? what if i got into another accident? things gonna get worse... but isnt it better? I can just take the time off for myself.. But i guess, from these incidents...I do mature out from it and learnt a lot of things...Things that make me be a beeter person, a more sensible person.

Sometimes things do happen for a reason. God move my heart to do certain things to learn something form it. And yes, i do learnt out something form it...friends..love...sacrifices..studies..time...lotsa things. Guess i'm a much stronger person after all this. Taking things so readily into my stride. Be it good or bad. Its so difficult to actually get mad at it. Thanks to all my friends who have always been there. The closest and even the far ones. People like..
terry...I owe u alot! thanks for all the advice and things that you have done for me. Thanks a lot
Deen..u are also another bloody frend. haha. thanks for everything...
Uzair..even though we have just started being close..Yuo have done r fair share after all. thanks too for the sacrifices.
Jinghui...You too snake lady.. haha.. Another friend who will lend me ur listening ear..
kk..pai che! haha...u too. a good company for going out and riding!
and these special clique of mine.. ifa, zi, ain, aini, lin
to all SIT peepz too! esp u azimah! you have done a lot for me too... will put u guys in my bdae list
not forgetting you too, theresa, cher, fat, ira, farhana,fida and all... thanks for evrything...

Listening to nice music to relax myself....
confused...

sad...

disappointed...

out...

2005-11-30T09:25:00.000-08:00

I realized that everyday that went on,
it seemed like if I discovered something new about you to love.
It was incredible to me how one person could make such a big difference in my life.
You touched me in a way that no one else ever had,
and gave me so many reasons to love you.
But now I realized that I got bitten by the love bug,
and that it was all a part of the game of life,
I just played it,
I didnt enjoy it,
or wint it.
In fact, to tell you the truth, I lost it.

2005-11-29T17:28:00.000-08:00

I sit here wondering your truest desire
Not knowing what you want
Not knowing how you feel
Not knowing what to do

I sit here wondering why you can not forgive
To not forgive is to say I am perfect, I am not human,
I never made a mistake, I am not sorry
Just as my true love, I am not perfect, I am human,
I make mistakes, I am sorry

I sit here wondering why we are fighting about the past
And not fighting for our future
Have I lost the love from my one and only true love
The one I love more than love is capable of
If not why aren’t we fighting for love, for years to come
Why give up on love when times get bad
Why let love go ~ Why let love go

2005-11-29T14:51:00.000-08:00

2005-11-29T14:30:00.000-08:00

2005-11-29T09:52:00.000-08:00

Perhaps the time has finally come
For me to quietly move on,
It seems there's nothing left here
Whatever love there was is gone.
I've tried in many ways to talk
But can't get beyond your wall,
As cold and cruel as you now are
I wonder..did you ever love me at all?

That soft and gentle tender look
That once filled your eyes,
Has turned into cold disdain
And leads me now to cry.
Memories of our past
Are so hard to let go of,
My future now of lonely dreams
Of empty days without love.
Don't worry for I'll go
Without making a scene,I'll just quietly pack up my life
And hold inside my screams.
Just grant me one last look
As I tearfully leave your door,
A glimpse into what was
As my tears fall to your floor.

I'll take with me our dreams
For you no longer need them now,
You've swept them all away
Amid your broken vows.
The pictures and mementos
I'll keep tightly packed away,
Maybe I'll be strong enough
To look at them some day
But the time has come for me to face
You no longer need me here,
I'll just slip quietly from your life
On a river of painful tears.

Please just take care
Stay safe and be happy to,
And know that as I go now
I'll never stop loving you

2005-11-29T09:32:00.000-08:00

I can’t promise you a lifetime or even a day,
For my days and yours are bound to others through a lifetime commitment.
What I can offer is simply…me.
For whatever amount of time we can steal.
I offer you laughter for laughter is beauty,
I offer you honesty, as honesty is pure,
I offer you patience, as patience is needed to gain trust,
I offer sincerity for though my sincerity I will show you my inner being and desires…
All I ask in return is for you to be honest and open
For through your honesty and openness I will receive from you all that I offer.

2005-11-16T23:00:00.000-08:00

I don't want to go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
Throwing their love away
I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you

I don't want to go another
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our privated lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me
And I say

Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
ForeverNobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need
And nowI'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with youBaby, you're with me
So don't you worry about

People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say

Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'm going to stick with you
Nobody's going to love me better
I'm going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody's going to take me higher
I'm going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I'm going to stick with you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this wayI
'm going to stick with you

2005-11-16T09:50:00.000-08:00

2005-11-11T18:35:00.000-08:00

2005-11-11T18:06:00.000-08:00

Feeling quite lethargic and quite unwell today.

Reached home around 12 plus yesterday nyte. Outing was fun yesterday. went to lin's house then to mine then to uzair's, ifa's, aini and lastly nurul. Coincidently, surprisingly, just found out that nurul stayed the SAME BLOCK, SAME FLOOR, SAME DIRECTION as fida. haha. Didnt know it yesterady. If not I will be knocking knock knock on her door, maybe slack with her but its actullay past 11 at taht time though. Haha..

Anyway, woke up at 5 this morning. Throat feeling pain. Coughing. Bits of blocked noses here and there. Damn tired to even wake up and go to work. At junction 8 for today. Left house around 550. supposedly can reach marsiling to pick uz up at uz but careless me, so sleepy while riding, missed the exit went straight to PIE. By then i have to go back another round. My petrol wasted! And that point of time its already running damn low. Reached at 630 though.

Started work at 7. Ended at 12. Uzair gave up. Tired and intending to go doctor and take MC. Terry also down. Complaining about how tired he is and having giddiness. Well, for me... Hold on as usual. Affect my riding though. Headaches. Skewl gonna end at 9 somemore. Dont know what gonna happen by the end of the day. Haha. Wish me luck.

Lucky tomorrow not skewling. Hope to sleep in. But deen suggested I meet up with him in the morning to salck at his area. Will see how if I have to drop by skewl to hand in the skewl stuffs. Tired and worn out with all the responsibility. But nvm, will teach me to be a more responsible person. Well, class rep mah. Haiyo. 2 years of it.

Anyway, not sure whether to follow the malay outing clique tml or with my classmates to celebrate vanisha's bdae. Confused confused. guess go both. Sacrifice some time lor...

2005-11-09T09:52:00.001-08:00

There is someone out there for me
I know she is waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name?
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane
How does she laugh?
How does she cry?
What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she?
Where is she?
Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she?
Who is she?
Who is gonna complete my world?
Where is she?
Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she?
Who is she?
Who is gonna complete my world?

I'm staring out at the sky
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams
Wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh?
How does he cry?
What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he?
Where is he?
Where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he?
Who is he?
Who is gonna take me so high?
Where is he?
Where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he?
Who is he?
Who is gonna take me so high?

There is someone out there for me
I know she is waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name
This life-long search is gonna drive me insane

How does he laugh?
How does he cry?
What is the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?

Where is she?
Where is she?
Where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she?
Who is she?
Who is gonna complete my world?

Where is he?
Where is he?
Where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he?
Who is he?
Who is gonna take me so high?

Where are you??
I'm going to look all over the world baby'Cuz I know you are out there
I know this might sound crazy, but I think I love you

Where are you??

2005-11-09T09:52:00.000-08:00

So here we are
We are alone
There’s weight on your mind
And I wanna know
The truth
If this is how you feel
Say it to me
If this was ever real

I want the truth
From you
Give me the truth
Even if it hurts me
I want the truth
From you
Give me the truth
Even if it hurts me I
want the truth
So this is you

You're talking to me
You found a million ways to let me down
So I’m not hurt when you’re not around
I was blind
But now I see
This is how you feel
Just say it to me
If this was ever real

I know that this will break me
I know that this might make me cry
Gotta say what’s on your mind, on your mind
I know that this will hurt me
And break my heart and soul inside
But I don’t wanna live this lie

I don’t care no more, no
Just give me the truth
Give me the truth
Cuz I don’t care no more
Give me the truth
Cuz I don’t care no more, no
Just give me the truth
Give me the truth
Give me the truth
Give me the truth
Give me the truth
Cuz I don’t care no more, no
Give me the truth
Cuz I don't care no more, no

2005-11-09T09:40:00.000-08:00

Sianz! Just finished an ICT quiz. Got a pass. 12/24 haha. Better than nothing. Hate to see a fail. Anyway, was quite pissed of by a certain someone. Called me so early in thje morning. Wake me up. Saw an unknown number. Didnt bother to pick it up then back to sleep. Woke me up again at 8! Sianz... wanted to wake up at 815 sia.. 15minutes more only!! I'm so tired already and this has to happened. Haizz.. Didn bother to pick it up also. Then woke up and off to bathroom to get for skewl.

Wore the new contact lense. No degree ah. Followed by eyeliner and wax. Didnt bring anything to skewl. No books no notes. ANyway, going geylang in a while more to get a baju kurung. Either pink or purple to pair up with lin, while terry with nurul. Deen ifa uz aini wearing something blue. Not sure about azi.

Cant wait for later to come. Gonna go raya outing with my fav cliques. Gonna be fun fun fun. haiya don know what to blog anymore lah. Cioaz

2005-11-07T15:13:00.000-08:00

Sigh In free access lab now together with terry and uz, rushing through our projects taht supposed to be handed in by 6. Just started and theres lot to do. Blah blah..

Been tired these few days. Fri slept late cause visitors left very late. Sat woke up at 8. Outta house at 9. First stop to pasir ris. So early. So far. So tired. So sleepy. Spent the whole day visiting. Reached back home around 8. The out again to my cousin hse to wacth liverpool and arsenal match and played games. Didn sleept thru the night. Ordered Mc in the middle of the night around 4. Damn hungry. Haha. Went around at 8 and outta again with family to continue visiting. Really a hari raya-thon sia. Then reached home around 10. Just sat down and then another group came. Left around 11 plus. By then so damn tired!

Today woke up at 5. Got ready for work. At dawson shopping centre. Started at 630. Picked uz up at marsiling and off to work. Ended around 12. Skipped EFMA tutorial. Reached around 1 in skewl. Met min, jinghui and deen and eventually didnt went for another tutorial. Went lunch instead. No breakfast. So its brunch i guess. Having a lecture aite now but me still here. Skipping it also to complete the project, an ica to be exact. Nyway didnt bring along my admin card. Wont make a difference anyway.

Tired tired!

Guess who i bumped into in here. LIN! haha..miss her! anyway talk for awhile and back to business.

Heard ifa cut hair! cant wait to see. Wednesday got hari raya outing with deen, ifa, aini, nurul, zi, terry, lin and uz. Fri also the same thing. First stop after skewl will be my house coz its at jurong. haha..i know, damn far rite!!! then up and away...

Sun with SIT peepz!

gtg ah..

2005-11-05T22:00:00.000-08:00

GARAGE SALE OF THE YEAR!!
Date: 6 November (sunday! aka tomorrow!!! yeah!!)
venue: Ruthland Road (Opposite KK hospital)next to the field opposite mutu's curry!
Time : 11am- 5pm
Nearest mrt station : little india,farrer park,novena
Bus services : 55, 56, 131, 166, 851,980
.i'm selling mango and esprit new arrival!! all brand NEW! =)all @ 40%...first come first serve!
there's also 2nd hand adidas,puma converse to buy!!
SO BE THERE OR BE SQUARE =)-minyi-

2005-11-05T09:37:00.000-08:00

phew! found a computer at last after all these days. Comp at home has been down and I'm very busy with all the hari raya preparations and visiting of all places in SIngapore. So damn tired today. Went out at about 8 plus in the morning and first stop was pasir ris, and taking a train... so far!! so early!! can die sia.. and the best thing is, theres only one house there that we are visiting. I mean what the hell.. but nvm got 10 bucks in return from that house..haha..

Yesterday was the second day of hari raya but dad got to work and my family didnt go out. So planned with my cousins to go out and shop. With the money we got! Went to extend my passport first. Because next two weeks gotta go BATAM to visit my uncle's newly bride familia. I just wanna go there to shop. Haha..
After that went to beach road to look for nice shoes, shirt and maybe pants, again. But nope, we are too early or maybe its just hari raya season. Most of the shop were closed. So we decided to head down to town to shop instead. Bought some nice stuffs! A fourskin pants which cost 49.90, a fourskin cap which cost 19.90 and a fourskin shirt 19.90 too and a new purplish pink flipflop.Haha. This havent include the things I bought from JB!!! thats worst! let me see.. All converted to SDG ya.. A volcom pants 50bucks, a volcom 3/4 pants 30bucks, a wallet 15bucks, baju kurung another 50bucks a volcom belt 15 bucks, hair wax.. haha.. dont know what else.. just simple stuff like foods and taxi fare. Kewl rite! Still loooooking for new shoes! dont know what to buy.

Took some pics with my 2cousin and my sis at town yesterday. Hell of a good time tho!

Still havent do my tutorials, icas and even project. Gonna be dead soon. Today gonna end damn late. Tml gonna start damn early and think gonna end quite late too. Hari raya at a difficult time. haha... ANd monday gotta work! Those who know about my NTUC work. Its usually at night rite? But guess what! Mon starts at 630 in the morning, Pity me, terry and uzair. Gotta skip EFMA tutorial. Hope can make it be back by 12 for lecture. Haha.. So kewl!

Kla gotta go to the next house liao. Will update soon ya. Taking care people!

2005-10-27T14:41:00.000-07:00

Skewl started at 12 today. Was planning to sleep in till 1045 but accidentally woke up at 930. Habit ah then cant get back to sleep. Tried to close my eyes and hope i will just dozed off but no it dint. Gave up after 10minutes. On the radio and listened to some somgs then fel kinda bored. Realised that terry's mp3 is with me and listened to my song, separated by usher. You guys can hear it soon in my blog maybe by tonight. The lyrics is at the main page of my blog though.
As i was listening to the song, thought back about my life and the situation i'm kinda in. Should I let go? Or Should i just stay?

Anyway, talked to a certain someone yesterday. We both realised something is wrong between both of us. And its preety funny and we dont actually understnad the problem. Well, we are very close druing sms or phone calls. We are very close in person too, well, for now should i say used to? But currently, both of us have this difficulty of talking to one another. No other prob with the others. Just the two of us. I mean I can talk to A and B like nothing but when it comes to her, I'm like dumb. Dont know how to start a conversation. Same for her. Its like we suddnely dont know each other. How can this be when we are so so close once before? What is happening? If only there's anyone who can enlighten me. Text me ya. YupYup!

Well, reached skewl at around 12. Holla at ifa and we exchanged stuffs. She gave me an antiseptic cream for my wound and another cream for deen. So sweet of her though. Lend her two vcds though. Slacked at carpark after that while waiting for terry to come by.

My company holla at me next to ask for me. Come down to the company for product training for tomorrows roadshow. Yes people, I have to work on fri, sat and sun. Having a roadshow for samsung mp3. Wth. Anyway, its at funan. Drop by cause i'll be quite bored. Anyway back to topic. They called me on tuesday to tell me to come down for the training on wed. I told them yup should be able to. But nope, changed my mind that night and text them back. Cause i need that day to settle my repairs for my bike. Told them and they said they will get back to me.

But waited till this morning still theres no reply. And they have to call me at 12, when i have already reached skewl. Told them i cant make it already coz i have class till 9. No choice. Anyway, suggest them to send a soft copy to my email and i will learn myself. No prob with me. They stresses that its quite impt but i still said i cant make it lor. Still waiting for them to think of something. Anyway, if they change their mind and i will not be working, its a good idea too coz i need a break badly and hari raya is coming near. Needed it to clean my room and do some makeover. Yup!

Boring sia. In eplaza with terry and imran. They playing games while i'm here blogging. Cant wait for today to end. No skewl for the whole of next week. Mon going JB and followed by geylang after that. Tuesday going to celebrate ifa's bdae. Wed may just saty home to help my family clean up the whole house. Thurs is hari raya! Oh ya! still havent buy my baju kurung and new clothes.. So fast sia this year. But never mind. Can rush just before hari raya comes!

Looking at them play is making me want to play. haha. sorry people gotta to go and play some games before my next lesson! Going to paly soccer during my 4-7 break later.. see you around poeple! tada...

2005-10-26T11:11:00.000-07:00

Surveyed at my workplace for some things that can actually change over my room.. haha saw this speaker! damn nice! altec lansing i think. Cost only for about 40bucks! ok rite?

Well, got some pic from nas blog about the outing that I went with SIT peepz to watch the deuce bigalow movie! Damn fun!

Me and Art! Art so formal go wacth movie sia. Haha.. cant be blame. Its fri and sharing seesion for SBM TEP. Haha. bear with it..

Our late break fast after movie at long john silver. Long table ya? But closeness brings harmony.. wahha..

And now its missy fida with the blogger, nas! wahaa..sorry nas took this from your blog. But i know u wont mind. Haha...

2005-10-26T09:48:00.000-07:00

Haha. So funny. Watching leon presenting our project. Came early today at about 8. Class started 1t 9. Met terry up. Created a powerpoint presentation. Within 20 minutes only. Thank you irah! Love you so much for helping me do some research and compliling it all to microsoft word and then sending it to my email. Thanks for the effort. Will repay your kindness somehow.
Was quite blur looking at the facts. Well, what can i say. Its all IT stuff. CGI, Java script, SQL and so on. Copied blindly into point form and put it in powerpoint. Where the hell is leon and desa. Didnt even do.

Anyway, entered lab and saw leon. Passed the thumbdrive to him and suggested that he present. He's quite blur i thinik but told dont worry. We did it and no problems. Haha.
Well, he has just ended presenting. well, the comments are positive. Quite factual. Its just that the content in a bit not there yet. But overall good. So, didnt i tell you leon? I wont saboh my friend wan lah. haiyo. Worry for what. Done with this project.

To fida, no need to apologize for yesterday. Guess you are shag then its not your fault u knock off. No worries. But i'm still grateful that you offered to help the past two days. No need to apologize over and over gain. Its ok. haha..smile okayz? (".)

To chermaine, how could you know your stuff? Wahaha..anyway not blaming you or anything. Its okay princess.

To fat, its okay also. Ure busy and i dont want to trouble you. Thanks for the msg too.

And lastly to you irah, thanks so much! really appreciate it.

Well, contacted hazel to ask her dad bout some bike stuff. Her daddy qorking in a bike workshop. Asked about he clutch lever. Coz my clutch lever is bent and is difficult to handle. According to her daddy, it wont cost me more than 10bucks. Well, hope her daddy can help me do a thorough checkup on my bike and do some servincing and maintaninace for me. I'll be happy if he do that. Will be dropping by at around 2 plus after national education lecture. At admiralty though.

Just lucky nothing happened to me and deen. This bike saved my life twice. Will there be a third time? GOD knows. Falling in love and close to this bike. Saved me a lot. Its like it rather get hurt than its owner sia. Bike suffered bad scratched, bent lever, almost broken rear brake, swinging mirrors and metal plating gone at the exhaust. Anyway, its has been kind nough to still be working to transport me to and fro in spite of the condition. Just afraid of its front wheel. I really feel its loose. Gonna do soemthing fast before something happen again. And i really donwant that to happen.

Learnt something new yesterday. Quite a nice phrase. "Someone who knows hoe to let go will have no problem or worries"... So true rite? So lets just let go to stuffs that are trying to pull us back or even stopping us from doing what we want and love.

Ciaoz! Gotta go tutorial. Have been blogging the whole of this ICT lesson. IT and communication. Sianz. And now its almost done. Gotta go. So people. Have an open mind. Learnt to let go at certain things ya.

2005-10-24T20:40:00.000-07:00

Sigh.. What a day. I cannot even express the exact word to describe it. Horrendous? Terrible? What the fuck? Whatever you name it. But i'm not feeling myself aite now after what has happened.

Planning to break fast in school. Went to Eplaza to meet the rest after lecture. Basically, there was me, deen, lin, ifa, aini and terry. Weather was raining. But oh well, it has stopped soon after. The road was still wet. But nevertheless i suggested that maybe they may want to purchase food ouside. I'm ridng anyway. So its not that bad.

Well, we decided to purchase burger king meals. So we thought that the nearest was either toa payoh or yishun. Brought deen along to be my pillion. Went out happily like any other day, just that the road was kinda wet and slippery. Brought my confidence level down. Rode with nervousness i should say.

Well, entered CTE to exit at toa payoh but couldnt find it so exited at moulmein, maybe can just drop by novena square to purchase it. Along the way, almost got into an accident ah. While changing lane, guess it was too close, almost hit the a car. Anyway survived it through. So no worries.

Bought the stuffs and rushed back to skewl. Late to break fast. Drove the normal road back to CTE and out of expressway. Well another incident happened. The exact same i should say. Wanted to lane change but too close again. Almost got knocked down again. Road was still slippery there. But survived it once again. So no worries ya. Entered CTE with a peace of mind.

Well, here goes the story. Was riding. Wanted to change lane, again. saw a taxi at the front wanting to change lane too. Saw the signal light and the head of the car entered the next lane. I followed soon after. Usually once a vehicle change lane, they will speed off after that. So i assume that its gonna be the exact same thing. But no. The taxi suddenly slowed down. Not sure whats happening at the front. I was quite fast i should say then not sure what to do. It s gettin near. Abd I noticed like the taxi like stopping. My bike almost hit theback. To prevent that, I braked. I think too much. Quite scared. The the fast wheels got locked by the braking. Skidded off. Thrown off the bike together with deen. Skidded with our skins on the road. Bike and me skidded so fast. We almost hit the taxi in fonrt. Lucky it drove away. Deen was the back. Skidding too. Lucky the car at the back stooped in time tyo prevent another another accident. Deen suffered some scrathes on his butt. My skin got cuts. Bruises lah. Right arm feeling numb now. Bike was bad. Scrathed damn bad. Handle bar dont know what to say. Damaged. Left clutch is worst! Mirror swinging left to right. Sigh. Settle everyhting at the road shoulder. Feeling scard. Wanna cry. Phobia. Deen was there to calm me down. Rtode back to skewl after taht.

Lastly I would like to apologize to deen for the stoopid accident. Dont know what to do if something bad happened to you. Glad you are all right. To ifa, aini and lin. Thanks for being there for us. Sorry to make you guys worry but everyhting is okay. Thanks for the concern.
Leave me out. I'm down. Again.

2005-10-21T17:12:00.000-07:00

Been listening to this song these past few days. Reflecting my life. Reflecting my situation. Trying to let loose. Trying to be okay. Song by Usher, Separated.

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

2005-10-21T16:30:00.000-07:00

Morning started just fine today. Feeling kinda tired and sleepy today. Glad that there's no skewl for me every friday. Woke up at around 9. Realised that mummy has gone to granny's house to help out in the making of the hari raya kueh. Sis went to skewl. Daddy went to work. And that leves me with my other granny and my small bro. All asleep. Went to living room to watched a vcd which i dont know how it landed in my home. A horror movie, feng shui. But not that horrorful to me. Guess I'm too used to horror movies ah. Bro woke up soon after and joined me after that and told me some parts of the story. I'm like shhh! shut up. haha. I dont like when people tell me the story ah. I wanna see it for myself. Haha..thats me for you ya.

dont know what to do. Fri somemore. gotta to do fri prayers. But no company. Then by surprise, my prayers was answered i guess, My bestest fren from my secondary skewl text me and asked where i was. At home of coz, rotting. Then he said lets meet up! i'm like yes! by all means! Met him at 1 then went to friday prayers! ya! surprised rite? Its been awhile though. The after that went to play pool for awhile at the shopping centre next door for about 45 minutes. won almost all the game. Obviously he didint know how to play but ya it felt great. Haha.

Went to skewl after that to meet deen. Ya i'm now in skewl blogging, in eplaza to be exact. stuck with deen. aini and ifa. Stopped by College bookstore to lookat the textbooks which are needed for my modules. textooks for Intro to sport and wellness cost me about 49.50! Havent include business finance, markerting management, etc. Sigh gonna be damn broke but luckily hari raya is around the corner Hoping to get some cash soon. Haha.. Thick skinned ya? But what to do.. Need money for a good cause ya. Cant be blame.

Was msging with the normal peepz yesterday night. Azimah. Fida. To my surprise fida text me, hey you wanna go watch movie tml? deuce bigalow..tt movie..evening like tt..asked ur frens along ah (".)... I;m like so surprised. Fida? text me like this? kewl! so text my clique. cher, azimah, terry, deen, fat, irah... haha.. the normal SIT peepz. Cant text aini and ifa coz the are working today but if i can i will like to ask them along but anyhow, fat and irah cant make it. Left me deen and cher. So here i am with deen trying to waste sometime before heading down to yishun to meet them esp cher! she still sleeping one! Anyway thanks for coming you people. Proud supporters of aFID here and FIDa there, wahaha.. Gonna sneak in some food later to break fast! haha...

Time moving so slowly now.. tick tock tick tock... tock tick tock tick...
Been quiet and silent these few days. Dont know whats wrong with me. Guess I'm enjoying silence. But is there something going on behind that silence? Only me and GOD knows. Trying as hard as possible to stay as happy as possible in front of the rest. Keep smiling. sigh.. got to go now.... Miss all my friends..

2005-10-20T17:36:00.000-07:00

Wednesday

Skewl was fine today. Didnt have much memories about lessons but had some after lessons though. But theres this National Education lecture that made me go WHOA! And you know what.. For the first time i have seen the LTC is being filled full house! and this also includes those sitting on the stairs! Almost all ex-TEP students plus Media studies students. Its so so crowded. Supposedly its a 3 hour lecture but to our surprise, tada, it lasted for only 15 minutes.. Great!
And who I saw after so long!! Media studies students! sat beside on the stairs though..pity them but missed them so much!

Two of the media studies peepz that i missed! where are you nisa? haha...

Well, class ended and ifa came. Shagged and trying to catch her breath. Anyway I followed the rest slack then meet cher. Wanted to accomplany her to check about the physio clinic thingy cause she injure her knee and tailbone. Went around SHS looking for the clinic. QUite lost and dumb and me have to have the hoour of asking people where is it.. Anyway found it but its closed and this cher was so paisay to call to book an appointment. Still want me to call for her. SioW! haha...

Ifa text me after that. SHe's bored and met her after that. Waited for her to come out of the toilet and she looked terrible. Sick i guess. Dont know whats the plan so slack on the bridge! then we decided to go town and visit deen instead cause he was working there. Rode there and its raining. Had fun though...

Upon reaching, wanted to suprised deen as he was damn busy attending to a customer. Went in, trying to look at every single products but actually looking at him. Everytime he look into our direction we will be like holding up the shirt covering our faces and trying to act interested and discussing withing ourselves. And he didnt even notice, even at one point of time when we were right in front of him! too busy i guess... Then he walked to our direction, I held the shirt up high, he didn notice..But i didnt know he didnt notice so i put it down. Me and ifa was like looking at each other then at him and deen was still busy doing his stuffs. So decided to hold it up again and then he looked and saig, hey!. He's like so surprised ah. loser...hahaha

took some pictures at adidas, fun fun fun.....

Found this pic damn nice! Missy in the background while miss ifa in the foreground..blend in but erm.... oh nothing... haha...

Love this type of hat so much! Didnt want to take pic of myself so told ifa to be my model! Nice right? I mean the hat... (''.)

Then went to far east to go window shopping. Surveyed lotsa designs! I love graffiti!

Nice?

Design by local artists!

This is unique though, theres a letter written on it. Here's how it goes...

My love,
It was almost unbeareable for us to be apart.
In the absence of your presence, I found it hard to breathe.
I couldnt eat nor could I sleep.
I spent many long and lonely nights awake just thinking of you.
My life felt empty and incomplete.
GOD only knows how I got by.
I love you and cherish you in every way.
I hope we will see each other everyday and savor every moment we love together.
Thank you for coming back into my life, my heart and soul.
I will forever be yours lovingly, passionately and faithfully.

Whoa so sweet. Congrat to the person who have gotten back that someone the person loved..

Come to think of it.. Is it this person? Is he suffering himself till he becomes like this? Hope not... (''.)

Haha saw this man at town..quite popular and common for you guys ya...

Then sent ifa to work. Asked deen for direction from HMV. and oh! before i forgot. I kena saman for parking without coupons!!!!!! 8Bucks!!! Back to topic, I know how to go to lau pa sat and esplanade area and from there it may quite easy to quite fast toreach but deen said dont go form there as he's giving us directions that will only take us about 10 from ther to International Plaza.Just go straight until you passed cineleisure. So i went straight... then dont know where we landed up lah. In some condo areas.. just moved on but not that confident. Reached tanglin area then went back to town.. haha. I know dumb rite. Then stopped at one of the traffic lights and asked one of the rider. He said its quite far and that I have to go out of here and connect to CTE and exit dont know at some palce which i dont hear it properly. So found the CTE entrance and just followed blindly, and exited and moulmein. Not confident at all. Then it led us to novena sia! i eman what the hell.. Tan tock seng and then NOVENA SQUARE. Its so far lah! then reach the novena circus roundabout and stooped beside a vespa rider. Reminded me of terry. Asked the rider for directions and he said that i must go back to town and just connect to city hall mrt, he meant jut go staright. The one that i have wanted to go to actually. But he's damn kind though. He led us all the way back to town then he rode off. Kena ERP for about 4 times ithink! siow. haha on the same road..haha.. coolios!
Followed the way the vespa guy told me and according to how i know to get there, it was just a simple journye lah! Oh man... Reached there and its time for break fast. PArked the bike there but! not to make the same mistaked again for not displaying coupons, I went to the next two bike and took his parking coupons then put at mine! damn bad rite! but what to do... haha... Anbut after that before i went off, I put it back to the bike okay! haha.... Waht an experience... What a journey...

Thursday

Rained on my side and had to ride. Feeling sick once again and anyhow, reached skewl by 12, which marrked the start of my first ICT class. Some IT and communication thingy. Maybe need some help for my fellow SIT peepz.. FIDA? CHER? AZIMAH? FAT? IRAH? haha... Alert ya!

After that had another lecture! Quite fun though. Its my elective and I chose this topic last semester. International Cross Cultural Management. Basically I will learn about CULTURE. Locally and internationally. How to do business and how to market your product effectively in conjuction with the cultures of each country and that sort of things. Had lectures and admin stuffs during the first hour. And guess what was in stored for me during the second hour!? Movie time!!!!!!!!! The lecturer played the movie, bend it like beckham! ya... it was fun but what she was trying to tell us that theres a different in culture between the hindi and americans. And how they try to break away so that they will not regret or suffer and be happy!

Next lecture was fun esp with our supervisor! Mr Ng! He is one funny and fun bastard i must say! made the lecture so damn interesting eventhough its dry. Loved this module. Maybe not to you but to me ya. Its Introduction to Sport and Wellness Management. Basically what we did today was learn about the bones, the muscles and even the anatomical positon of the body. and oh! how to cut the body too! Thers lotsa terms! Quite confusing but its so easy. Haha...

Now in the lab togeter with aini and ifa. Aini msn-ing and laughing tio herself while ifa started working already. So shall not disturb her. shall disturb you aini! haha..

Class for Business Law was cancelled and that leaves my class rotting to death. Lecture ended at 4. Since Business Law was cancelled, the next lesson is at 7! # hours of stooooooopid and long breaks! Anyway, thursday is quite dreadful for my class. 12 to 9! tiring but then we have no lessons on every fri.. a treat for a treat! haha... gonna meet terry and the rest soon. Have no idea where are they though..playing pool maybe? While deen is still missing inaction... where is he.. haha....

Wah! tired! gonna blog again some otehr time soon... Take care ya peeepz!

2005-10-19T09:46:00.000-07:00

Wah had real fun yesterday.. Mummy cooked chicken rice.Its so nice lah.. My cousin came over to overnight at my place. Brought two skateboards.. Told me to skate with him with his friends after breaking fast.. wallau i told him, siow ah you, its been awhile since i hand the skateboards... Liek 4 years ago when i was sec 1? I mean... What age is this? skate? haha but nevertheless accompanied him.. Went to the skatepark situated behind my place.. Together with his 5 frinds. Kool! Skate for about 2 hours...Great workout.. Sweat it out! Pics of my skatepark!!!

Taken from the top of the slope

Sitting down on the slope..

What can i say..VOLCOM! nice graffiti for those who did it!

2005-10-14T14:27:00.000-07:00

Finally upload the pics from both farewell party..MRC and SW side... Fun fun fun!!
Enjoy...

THE FOODS! YUM YUM!

FISHBALLS!

NUGGETS!

WEDGES!

BEE HOON!

SOME DESSERTS!

Sigh...TOoo bad i'm fasting..Cant even eat but to stare and endure..haha... DISCIPLINE!

Now some pictures from the SW side...fun!

We have a volleyball competition among each other! Two SW classes combineD! Damn fun! Its been some time since we have a reunion...

Mr Kelvin Ng...Our Supervisor for Gym and SPT.. Looking surprised cause I snapped his pic unexpectedly...

Mr Damien Lee together with our future PEM, MS Prema!

The 2 siow cha bo in our class..Minyi, Eileen, Siva. and crizzy wizzy boo!

The new transformation! from a quiet guy to a joker.. Guess its the influence from her gf ya.. Coreen~all your fault...

Happily eating without coreen!!! gonna tell her! haha...

The coordinator of the whole event...Japanese YUN YUN! haha..damn cute lah this gerl.. Siow!

The other coordinator..Uzair..Feeling weak after the whole game and trying to endure with all the nice smelling food in the room... Fasting mah..

Dont know why...but i like the effect..Its like a light from heaven! Come bless us, sw! haha

2005-10-14T09:12:00.000-07:00

...Suffering In silence...

...Too Cool To Care...

...Losing Faith In lurve...

There's so much mistakes in life when we wished we can just turn back the time... How I wish this was true...

To whom it may concern...

Should i listen to my heart or my mind...?

This is a good advice for those in a relationship...

Only you can put the pieces back together.. I wish you knew...

So many things been happening in my life...I may just lose my smile in no time ya...

Do you even know yourself?

I'm just waiting for a better day to come...Its been hell...

Special thanks for malilsis who found these cool stuffs...

2005-10-13T23:08:00.000-07:00

Got some pictures of my niece that i love so much..She's so cute!! BEcause she has dimples!! I love dimples!!!!

2005-10-13T15:21:00.000-07:00

GALS

When a GIRL is quiet and is alone,
She is thinking of you and she misses you

When a GIRL is lying on her bed
She is thinking deeply why she loves you

When a GIRL looks at you in your eyes
She wants to tell you how much she loves you and how important you are to her

When a GIRL answers "I'm Fine" after a while
She is not and feels hurt

When a GIRL answers "DUNNO" / "MAYBE"
She want it and she means it

When a GIRL keep asking you the same question
She is wondering why you are lying

When a GIRL hugs you while sleeping
She is wishing that you belong to her forever

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She Miss You and wants your attention

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She cares for you and she wants to know how are you today

When a GIRL sends message to you everyday,
She wants you to know she is fine

When a GIRL says I love you,
She really means it

When a GIRL says that she can't live without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future Husband

When a GIRL says "I Miss You",
She wants to see you immediately

2005-10-13T15:12:00.000-07:00

I'm tired
I'm really really tired,
I'm really really tired of loving you anymore....
But at the end of the day...
Do you love me too?
I dont wish to know, I dont want to know..
Cause I'm just too tired of loving you anymore..
It hurts...

2005-10-13T15:10:00.000-07:00

hi people... kinda just got back from khong guan factory near my place, jurong... kinda stoopid though... paid $2.5 for transport, to and fro... but the tour in the factory only took about less than half an hour, can? We came all the way from ang mo kio and we only got simple stuffs... Just the basic on how they do the biscuits but never mind, its the company that I went with that makes the journey fun fun fun...

Not sure why but was kinda moody lately. Feeling bored very soon... Wanna be mad at the slightest thing, wanna shout at some people wanna scream out loud.. but nope, just kept my cool and stay quiet... Silence is the best medicine... either i just keep quiet or i simply just walk away.. Not hurting anyone or even myself further..for those who care, give me some time and you can text me after some time.. guess its the fasting month...been tired lately...

Anyway, back to this morning. Rode to skewl as usual. Preety scary cause its raining and the road is once again, slippery... Haha, and to those who have heard my story, here i go again..
On sun, I had a minor accident between my bike and me. But no worries, no animal were harmed in this accident. It was raining heavily and the road is damn slippery. Going at my normal speed. Wanna make a right turn at the T-junction. I leaned to my right to make turn but i think i was quite no confident as the road was slippery, my bike didnt actually turn. instead of going 90 degrees, it just went 45 degrees. Was quite scared of coz because the bike was not slowing down and approaching the kerb! I tried to brake but guess it was too slippery, it didnt slow down. Scared, i brake hard and it was like a jam brake which cause my two wheels to locked and skidded which i later lose control. Both me and my bike skidded on my right. Was thrown off the bike when the bike finally hit the road. Its quite funny but i see it as I'm challenging the bike to who will reach the kerb first at that point coz both of us were skidded across the street.. To my amazement, the bike won! haha...with lotsa scratches and stuffs! die...dont know what to say to my dad... anyway, was preety lucky that i'm still alive. Scratches here and tehre but i'm okay for now... not the bike..
Thats why i have this certain phobia when i ride during rainy days..i will try to avoid it but its kinda a bad experience for me...

Reached skewl late though. Dropped by my grandma's place at bukit batok to pass her some stuffs from my mummy... And lucky, got some cash from grandpa. Felt like a delivery boy after that...haha..

Sigh...Moody once again... what the hell is wong with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaarrrrrrrrrgggghhh!!! guess i'll blog some other time ya... sorry...

2005-10-13T11:35:00.000-07:00

I love VOLCOM! and this is the brand logo! Nice and simple! The logo in a stone...

Was kinda amazed by the work of a malaysian! Isnt it nice? Love this font!

C'mon people! Buy jeans get one free t-shirt!!! Brought to you by Silver Planet form johor bahru.

To those who have been to my workplace office..does this pic look familiar? haha... was quite surprised myself to see this pasted on my office wall... employee of the year i guesS!!! haha,, fat hope!

Me and me again...was quite bored at work so kinda took the time off to snap snap snap... Me working at funan tho...so drop by people!! i'm bored!

Guess what happen when my cousins and me joined forces? haha..you guess it right... this is what we did to one of our cousin's room.. well, this is for the new outlook for hari raya.. gonna do something about my room too... Alif and Arif.

Well, this is what i'm selling. Kinda boring but sellable though... External harddisk. I love the colours! white and pink! thats the reason why i arrange it this way....haha

haha...the pic from sentosa! We went on my one week block leave and hell yeah, we had lotsa fun esp with this bunch of crazee peepz i hang out with....

Deen took this when i was riding and speeding all my way across the expressway... siow! so dangerous...but thats what cool people are meant to be! whatever things!

Well, thats me! doing the grind outside SIT clubroom and I have mr Deen to thank for snapping such a perfect shot! wow! haha...

2005-10-12T09:00:00.000-07:00

At last i put my ass down to start blogging again, been kinda busy the past few weeks and lotsa things have happened. I'll elaborate it mybe on my future posts.

Fasting month has been a great thing. Together with terry and deen, we have been going for food trail almost every break fast time. For example, on mon we went to tekka centre to eat with ifa, lin, aini and zi. Hell great of a time. Yesterday was at beach road together with fat and ira. Last week was also out but knida forgot where. Cause ever since i've been riding, i've neen to a lot of places. Haha...oh ya! bugis too!

Today was kinda preety boring. Done with the attachments thing. Two more days before we are out of here. Nothing left to be done. Waiting for the new bacth of students who will be taing over us. We gotta do a proper handing over to them before we can actually let all loose ends go. 20mins to go before they are here. wonder what the rest are doing aite now

speak of the devil. terry just called. He's coming over to my stopover. Guess he's kinda bored. Where the hell is the rest.

Min! welcome back! its nice to see that ure back!

2005-09-22T17:20:00.000-07:00

WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PASSED MY TRAFFIC POLICE TEST TODAY!!!!!!!!!! WITH ONLY 6 DEMERIT POINTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOT LICENCE LIAO!!!!! GONNA RIDE TO SKEWL SOON!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-09-16T19:25:00.000-07:00

Was so bored ih the lab and the crazy things i did with terry's helmet! cool stuff! and free at that!!!!!! enjoy!!!! They just got punk'd!

To start the ball rolling, i have to satrt first to show the good example...!

Now the owner to lead the rest! Nice pose!

And now is MR DEEN, who was busy with his blog! yes people! a blog from mr deen, wait for its publish.

This was an innocent vistim but what to do, she was there at that point of time. to be fair.... she also got to get involved in this!

And to wrap things up, the ever loving ms ifa in the ms congeniality helmet! hahakz..

2005-09-16T18:00:00.000-07:00

Guess what! look at how ifa look before she came into poly!! haha! so coooool! she's gonna kill me if she this man! sorry...hahhaha

Do i even look as if i'm wearing a baju kurung? payback time for ifa!!! hahakz...

Well, after changing, we are the investigators in white. Well, thats wad she hope for. One day that we eill be CSI partners! she be the one seducing the criminals and me cracking the mystery.

And here we are once again. after a solution to a mystery.... once again, the day is saved by the powerpuff gerls! i mean..us... hahakz

2005-09-16T17:54:00.000-07:00

at last its the time of the week! its friday and skewl is over!! and its already the weekends bfore you know it. well, time past really fast. And that caught me thinking... time is moving so fast. Before you know it, tomorrow may just the last day of your life. Isnt that the casE?

Anyway, slacking in the free access lab now waiting for ifa, aini, deen and terry to come by. Ended my day earlier today. Went straight up here and was surprised to see my orientation kids. Two of them. Was on holiday but still came to skewl just to use the comp to blog. Woodlands somemore. Siow!

At last they have come!!!! deen started blogging, terry surfing the nest, ifa and aini taking care of the lab. Here we go!!!

Anyway! had fun jsut now! just like i hope for just now, the cravings are now all gone. Got the chance to go KFC to eat lunch! thanks ya'll for accompnaying me! well, as usual went back to skewl and had nothing to do so it was....slacking time since we got back!

actually got nothing else to say....gonna blog somemore later when i got some ideas!!!!!!

2005-09-16T16:07:00.000-07:00

Everytime I hear your name
Everytime I feel the same
It’s like it all falls into place
Everything, everything feels right.
So many things remind me of you
I hope that you can hear me
I miss you---------------------------------------
Nobody wants to be alone
If you're touched by the words in this song
Then baby...
U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got it, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad
Deep down you know it's best for yourself
but you hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn--------------------------------

2005-09-16T15:47:00.000-07:00

fer -you-

it's different.
i don't know why.
what's really happening?
do you know why,fid?
should i just turn around and run?
or should i just stay here and wait?
wait, i'll not wait.
im going, going somewhere you wouldn't even notice that im going.
cause you didn't even realise that actually i was standing there,
watching you, admiring you.
not telling you the truth.
cause simple enough,
i just don't dare.
call me a coward or whatever.
i wouldn't even care.
i admit.
i'm a pessimist when it comes to this.
i told myself once that it's over, that im over you.
BUT no, it doesn't seems true.
i've been living a lie.
i'm in denial.
when will this end?
i don't expect a happy ending.
all i want is..
to get over you.
cause i know.
something good won't happen..
don't ask.
i just know...
i still wonder why i feel this way
and i'm still waiting fer a better day..

i can't imagine how things will be like if you knew.
what will happen if i were to tell you the truth?
what would -you- do?..
what would -you- do if -you- knew?..

2005-09-16T15:35:00.000-07:00

Eyes Are The Mirror
The eyes are the mirror Of somebody's heart.
You can look and discover
Everything about that part.

When they are sad
You will see their pain
You will see the hurt inside
Even if they don't complain.

When they are happy
Their eyes will shine.
You will see the sparkles
So bright, so fine.

When there is love
You will see that special glowing,
Whatever it is they are feeling I
t is surely showing.

So,tell me.
What it means when your eyes twinkle?

2005-09-16T11:13:00.000-07:00

in SPT now, for no reason. Wanted to meet cher cause she said she will be going gym. But she will only be coming to gym only at 12 plus...and i'm here at 11.. damn bored. I'm the only in my group in MRC who is present here today. Damn sianz! The BPOSians are having some activity in there so they cannot be here. Its been some time though...feeling bored. Craving for KFC now... its been a week! haha..i know but i just miss it.

Yesterday was awesome! had leave from TEP! met terry up at HMV to survey for my new havainas, but then only limited choices. SO rode to lido to get one there. From there, we rode to ARAB STREET to survey for terry's rattan basket for his vespa! damn cool and damn cheap! From there to beach road! haha...ate lunch there and then to potong pasir to get my pay. Then off to terry's place to play winning eleven!!!! then back to skewl to meet the rest and by then, it was time to sign out already..hahak..time moved really fast yesterday! yeah!

watching the video clips of my new fav song..... Golddigger by kanya west. hahak....fun...and nice.. anyway, had to wear formal today. Wore a marroon top with jeans and my havaianas. Wallau ifah said i wear like baju kurukng sia! hahas.. anyway, sharing session was initaillay at 10 so dont want to wear formal b4 that. Then suddenly MRC called saying that it has been push forward to 930. Rushed back and asked the supervisor whether can wear like this coz me not presenting. She said no..WTF! haha... then had to go to all the trouble to change to formal. Sigh. For only 20 minutes, hahahahaha....

then meet up with ifa and aini, wanted to go for brunch. in the end went to cheers got 2 currypaths and one pack of nutrisoy! slack for awhile and then they had to go for the BPOS thingy. haha... now, me gtg... ciaoz!

2005-09-16T03:36:00.000-07:00

learn some new phrase from my friends blog...

`conflict within self.

`a smile can create a bond and a bond can create a smile.

`nice from far but far from nice.

`just one look. that's all it took.

`something which is good, is not necessarily true. something which is true is not necessarily good. something which is good, is not necessarily worth it. and something which is worth it, is not necessarily good.

`a great romance can ruin a perfectly good friendship.
(this is the greatest fear and worry for me.. sigh)

`love is just a word until it's proven to me.

`tears are feelings we can't say.

2005-09-14T13:34:00.000-07:00

Got this next entry from eyenie's bf blog. Quite true and hope that someone can actually notice it. If she is reading my blog.... Cause I'm cool on the outside but behind those coolness, says a lot of feelings... I'm just afraid.

if gerls could see the truth behind guys..

when a GUY sms you everyday,
he expects you to reply.

when a GUY calls you everyday,
he wants to hear ur voice.

when a GUY is quiet,
he is tired of loving you but yet dunoe if you love him.

when a GUY looks at you wib eyes full of qns,
he is wondering if u love him.

when a GUY says "im fine" after a few seconds,
he is not fine at all.

when a GUY stares at you,
he is thinking if only he can haf you.

when a GUY lies on ur shoulder,
he is hoping time would stop forever.

when a GUY wants to see you everyday,
he miss you.

when a GUY says "i love you",
he actually means it.

when a GUY says he cant live without u,
he means if you die, he will die.

when a GUY says "i miss you",
he really misses you.

2005-09-14T11:04:00.000-07:00

Took some pictures from my previous blog. Those were the days..

Well, This is me. With black and short hair. Still working for burger king at this point of time.

Believe it! I design the poster for the gym ok. Nice rite? Quite a surprise though. GO gym and look out for one more. Lost and Found. Behind the counter. I also designed that.

After the SBM ORIENTATION FINALE, SW performed for the freshiees. Hiphop, kickboxing and skipparobics! yeah!

The ever lasting sport and wellness class!! United we stand!

My freshiees! Took charge of these ladies class!

Me and jinghui. I really think i look like a gerl here in this pic! dont know why. Opposite atrracts! haha

2005-09-14T10:35:00.000-07:00

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up

I can't sleep at night
When you're all on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radioSinging to me
'If you think you're lonely now'
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface

I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling insideI need you
Need you in my life baby

Mariah Carey We belong together

2005-09-14T10:21:00.000-07:00

well, this song is kinda for my ex..to those who know it..and what ever had happened. Now, i'm feeling much relieved and this song says it all and its kinda one of my favourite song for now. Sigh..donw want think bout those days. learnt my lesson..Its all because of you, that i'm like this! You wont even be reading this, anyway it doesnt matter if you do...

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of youI find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of youI find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

2005-09-14T09:38:00.000-07:00

Hey It was great yesterday!! Went town for outing during lunchtime! with the bpos peepz including terry! Look at the great fun i had!

Well, saw a pretty car, and the pretty lady.. hahakz! can this my dream car? Fat hope! if not about the car, how about the girl? haha...ooopz! she's attached. Buy one get one free lah!!

Saw this gay at town. Kinda kewl rite at the way he wore. Puurrrfffeecccttt! and guess who it was, it was none other than..... no surprise hor, TERRY LEE!! haha..damn funny, he was walking like that trying to be a gay, and when he turned around, there was really a real gay! he felt scared and ran away! haha

This is where we ate. At far east, Sakura. You poeple should know lah. Lin reading some things about some things. haha...dont know lah what the flyer was alla bout. and the rest is concentrating to her talk. Waiting for the foooooods!

What else can we do after lunch? Shopping!! and these beads looked damn cool lah!! deen, me and terry trying out the stuffs. Then the salesperson was like, erm, no phototaking please. and then the pissed off face! harlow...where's the customer service? hahaha

2005-09-12T15:36:00.000-07:00

If i had the letter "HRT",
and would have the chance to choose "EA" to get "HEART",
or "U" to get "HURT";
I would rather choose "U" to get "HURT"
Then have a "HEART" without you.

get it?

In life, GOD doesnot give you the poeple you want;
Instead GOD give you the people you need.
To teach you,To hurt you, To love you and to make you exactly the way you should be!

2005-09-12T15:24:00.000-07:00

If you're mad with someone, and nobody's there to fix the situation...
You fix it .
Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend.
And if u don't, tomorrow can be too late .

If you have feelings for somebody, but that person doesn't know...
tell her/him.
Maybe that person have feelings for you too.
And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late.I

f you still love a person that you think has forgotten you...
tell her/him.Maybe that person has always loved you.
And if you don't tell her/him today , tomorrow can be too late.

If you need a hug of a friend... ask her/him for it.
Maybe they need it more than you do.
And if you don't ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you really have friends who you appreciate... tell them.
Maybe they appreciate you as well.
That if you don't and they leave or go far away today ,tomorrow can be too late.

And if you miss someone so much, tell him/her.
Maybe they miss you even more.
And if you don't tell him/her today, tomorrow can be too late

2005-09-12T14:49:00.000-07:00

Hey leg feeling better now after doing some rehab at the gym this morning with terry and deen. Trying to strengthen it once again. Quite frustrated because my hamstring couldnt even life up the lightest weight! feeling lousy but at the end of the day, we gotta have patience for this type of injuries.

Then went lunch with khorkai, zul, deen, terry and uzair at food junction. sat there for about one hour plus just talking crap over lunch. no sense of direction.

Kinda missing someone rite now.

Anyway, lets go back to sat. After the match, me deen and chermaine went to town to slack then followed by pool an lucky plaza! then chermaince dragged us all the way to toa payoh sports hall to catch the asian netball finals between singapore and malaysia! and guess what! singapore played really quite well. won malaysia and became the champion. they deserve it!

well, yesterday was a boring day ah! stayed at home the whole day!!!!! cant even do much with my current leg situaution. My family went to geylang to get the baju kurung and i cant go cause its hurting. Anyway told my parents not to worry about my clothings cause i'll be getting myself with some friends or with my girlfriend in times to come, if have. haha... gotta get lotsa baju kurung instead of those tshirts and jeans only. Gonna got out more this year!

Hey min! why didn you come today!! damn bad! tomorrow going india then today never meet us one! so bad! anyway wishing you a pleasant journey! bring for us some things back from india.

Wah!!! so bored ah. dont know waht else to say. wad else to blog. wad else to talk. Kinda lost. Wanna talk to that someone but dont think she's here. haizz...so bored.... feaking bored...fucking bored...
why am i thinking of her? why do i miss her....? aarrggghhh! i don want...i'm afraid..

2005-09-12T14:29:00.000-07:00

Anyway back to saturday. Had fun going out with chermaine and deen. Had an election for the president tittle! yes! look...

getting ready and touched up for the election!

And there he was, at the election booth! vote for hafid as your next president of singapore!!!!

And guess who else were there to support him? the Nike Womens! isnt that just great?

And at the end of the day.. who else deserve the post other thatn hafid? I won the election and here i am with the ever lovely singapore flag! thank you for your support people!

2005-09-12T10:00:00.000-07:00

Got a link from min's blog: http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
go try it! its kinda true though. The results shown says a lot bout me. need i say more?

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

2005-09-10T12:20:00.000-07:00

wah! at last...done with the match! a good match i should say. Both teams played very well. But the score is 5-2 to SBM. Well, cant play that well today. Injured. Dont know what happened. Was playing around yesterday with min showing her how to kick and score. But with no balls. Kicked it too high then snapped! sharp pain in my right hamstring. According to caroline, my gym instructor, i pulled my hamstring. Then yesterday was in quite pain already. Tried to strecth and relax it. ok a bit...but gets worse after that.

Then today, strecth it again before the match. warming up, tried kicking the ball outside the box to the far post, used a lot of strength and snapped! again.... fell to the ground. felt like crying cause it was terrible pain. My team said dont play but i wanted to coz we are shorthanded. only 10! anyway... robben passed me his guard for the thigh so i wore it to tighten it up. But not much diff. Cant even run properly. Was suffering thorughout the whole game. After awhile, my right thigh also started to get pain. Guess it spread to the front. my rite leg was gone, in another way ah. COntinued playing....then my left thigh gave way. I could not take it but still go on! aarrghh!
After the game, suffering cause cant even walked properly. Now, relaxing it.

Called my company to cancel my work cause i dont think can make it. Haizz... wad a day. learnt my lesson. Next week still got match. Dont think i can even play during that game. Rehabilitaion period. Next to treat it well before anything happens. Maybe doing some physio...

Argh... wad a day! but we had fun. all starts well, ends well. Thank you SIT for the Game! it was a fight! hoping to play more in the future. Love ya!

See what happened what happened to deen's boot? hahakz...was trying to outrun some guy, he shoot and badaboom! hahakz..it explode!

2005-09-09T17:38:00.000-07:00

hey people, now in free access lab. guess who beside me.. yunyun! haha.. anyway just signed out and went straight to access lab to slack alone. Anyway spend some time to blog. Make it a habit ah. Guess waht! oh my god, yunyun was talking to one of a client and her england is damn powderful ah. The person asked how sure are u, someting like that and she she replied, basically sure! hahakz...damn funny. then she called mr kelvin ng! and he was like shouting out of the phone ah! so loud! yunyun could even hear it from far! confirm spoilt! thats him alright. loudspoken.

Going home later getting ready for my religious class at around 830. then off to my auntie house cause my parents want me to go there cause no one will be at home to wake me up and stuff. Most of family, i mean the big ones lah not only mine will going to batam to attend my uncle wedding. happening sia! anyway, have to reach skewl before 830 at stadium for the match! quite excited to play! anyway, ifa has volunteered kindly to help wake me up in case i'll be late. so sweet. thanks! anyway, after that match gotta to run for work at funan!! wah damn tired lah!
till late evening. but think can make it one.

Hey have you guys tried the link that i gave about the jealousy test? its quite fun though! asked min, ifa, aini and nurul to do just now.. all the results damn fun!

Nurul is only 6% jealous! damn kewl ah this gerl. whoever gets her is gonna be free and easy! ahahk

Ifa is only 14%! oklah! thought she's the type who will get more... but dont judge a book by its cover i guess.

Me is 20% jealous! nothing to say...haha...

Aini is 22%! c'mon aini! dont be so jealoues...

and the winer is....!!! MINYI!! with a score of 54%!!!! guess what! the average is only 34% lah.. thats a long way! can see lah, she'll love her bf to bits! haha...but she's a damn good freind no doubt. youre never too far away....

alamak! deen just called me to slack! gotta find out his result for the test!! hahahkz!!! bye peepz!

2005-09-09T11:34:00.000-07:00

WHOA!! nice? ifa logo!!

See what happens when you get a mismatch of clothings? haha...ifa and terry! terrifa! oh should i say terrific?! hahakz!

2005-09-09T11:23:00.000-07:00

Sitting next to aini now in BPOS waiting for the IBID team to finish with their presentation. feeling hungry but not hungry. Dont know why. Sick lah people!! hahakz anyway had fun yesterday slacking with aini and ifa at khatib. Well, we are heading home actually and ifa was supposed to meet her bf at khatib. And the thing is, her bf only booked out at 8pm and we were there at around 630. We decided to accompany her since we had nothing to do. I know a bit of palces in khatib and brought them to the nearest playground to slack and chill. cause me feeling too weak to do anything. hoping can sleep. Then all of us became crazy and lotsa things happened ah. Took some stoooopid pictures at the playground too! enjoy!

A bad fall from ever lovely ifa! Like fallen durian sia! paisay when people look at her! wads more, formal lah!! haiyo..malu seh!

Aini trying not to help her bestest buddy after the fall, making ifa to make a fool out of herself! damn retard!!!

All that starts well, ends well. Tired and relaxing after the whole thing. Feeling sicker after that! all these two gerls fault!

After that went home to have an early nite but no... my cousin have to be there to add in the atmosphere. So must entertain her coz one of the closest cous ah.. haiya..sacrifice again. Klah...gtg, blog again later! yeah! tai cian!

2005-09-08T16:13:00.000-07:00

this is gonna be a bit weird..haha, starting to put up pictueres in the blog. haha, enjoy..

My new hairstyle, quite funny ah, wanted to cut something like NAIMA for america's next top model, guess didnt work out.. haha

At the gym, nothing to do. Posing for another angle. haha, retarded.

Dont they look like those twin sistas from china? haha..damn cool!

Love this two ladies! helped me alot for my flash! and times of need.. thanks!! love ya!

Me, ifa and aini..Love to slack both of them! we just couldnt stop having lotsa fun!

Me and the lovely ifa! Thanks for being able to stand my nonsence, day in and day out.

2005-09-08T15:45:00.000-07:00

Wah! Confirm sick liao! My body feeling weak, eyes damn pain, headache, feeling feverish already. But still going strong! (ya rite!) followed deen, yuanzhi and terry go play pool at grassroots club. joined later by leon and zul. Well, i was sitting at the cushion couch outside which then i feel asleep. Cannot take it. So sick already. Think i slept bout merely half an hour.

Yesterday cynthia from Cadbury-NTUC gave me and terry a call to ask whether we can work on tuesday, afternoon sia. 3 pm! how? skewl sia, TEP somemore.. how to cabut. Finish at 6. Told her that we gave her a confirmation today. Cracked our brains like what cause its so difficult to cabut sia. So just gave Cynthia earlier on to confirm that we can make it on Tuesday at 3, location is at Sunplaza. But guess what! haha! its been pushed to night! like normal lah... so late night again.. Buy one get one free..cause she said Mon also got! at toapayoh! so fun..blessing in disguise. So sick and two more late nights coming again! breakdown liao!

Guess what..ifa just gave me a call. Miss this gerl so much! Unable to go to skewl with her cause i was too sick to get out of bed. She called me earlier on in the morning to asked whether i'm coming soon. well, thanks anyway for calling and sorry didnt inform u earlier on that i was gonna be late. didnt contact you teh whole day after that. And she called to ask bout me.. so sweet. Well, sorry ifa, not feeling that too good and lazy to contact anyone bout anything. But u light up my day. haha thanks babe! good luck for your flash presentation also! best of luck!

Min min! I miss you! jinghui you too!!!

my uncle getting married this sat! yeah! with one BATAM gerl! wallau! so far!! hahakz..of all people? must ask him the story behind it. haha.. curious. Cant make it to batam this sat coz working, at funan. Anyway, i was just thinking..this hari raya, i will be damn packed ah. Singapore is already so much, now must still go johor PLUS batam!! oh man!! Fun packed!

Anyway, this is for deen! cheer up kay. Dont get too upset by the result. Can try harder one. I'll be behind you to kick ur ass if u ever give up! go go go faster get ur licence! i'll be waiting! Mine kena hang already! hahaha.... lazy liao! 2 more weeks!! yeah yeah!!

Klah people, me need some rest. Nose so irritating. pain and road block. guess they checking the licence of those bad hair! hahakz..yucks! thats y so blocked! wondering how many hari's licence kena revoked already....

2005-09-08T11:40:00.000-07:00

One day, LOVE and FRIENDSHIP met.
Love asked Friendship:
"Why do you exist when i already exist?
Friendship replied:
"To put a smile where you leave tears"

get it? i dont...haha..me slow

2005-09-08T11:00:00.000-07:00

Daily Teen Forecast for September 08, 2005
Provided by Astrology.com

Weekly Forecast
It'll be rough going when it comes to interactions with strangers today.
Everyone seems like they've got somewhere to go, someone to be, something to do.
What's the rush?
You'll be happiest when you gravitate toward quiet corners.

__________________________________________

Just had breakfast with minyi, shannon and my boy, terry. Chatted with min for awhile cause its been sometime since we had a long talk. Then went to SA office to get the confirmation on the approval of the field for this sat match. Mr Arshad is on leave so the confirmation still not there. so irresponsible. I mean, Sat is two mroe days away and he have not yet done anything. then how? last minute must find other place to book sia..troublesome. But luckily, Ms Amy lee was kind enough to help us to check the form again, said on the form is written that the facility is not being book on that day wadsoever. She also helped us find another person in charge to settle this for us but he is in a meeting. But no matter what, she said that it should be ok. Just waiting for her call to confirm about the confirmation.

Damn! Like you by bow wow is blasting on the radio. I love this song. Quite nice to listen to.

Now in free access lab with correen. feeling quite bored got nothing to do so decided to come here to slack. Waiting for deen's TP news. Terry at grassroots club playing pool. Min gone to catch a movie. Ifa, aini..dont know where. Feeling lazy today. So didnt bother to ask anyone about anything. Group 1 and 2 having project presentation in the lab in fornt of MRC. Correen and my group need not cause ours is extended till next week.

Sigh dont know what to do now. Nose blocked. Having headaches. Body feeling weak. Me getting soon.................Somebody, please take care of me.

2005-09-07T16:26:00.000-07:00

My horoscope for the day..weeee...

Daily Overview for September 07, 2005
Provided by Astrology.com
Daily Extended Forecast

Quickie:
Your mind is on business, but your emotions still matter. Let your feelings show.

Overview:You want things to go your way, but someone you're very close to has different ideas about what should happen next. Talk it over rather than declaring 'my way or the highway.' You might find that you'll end up on the same path that way.

How about my love life.. hmm...lets see..

Daily Love for September 07, 2005
Provided by Astrology.com
Weekly Love

Daily Flirt:It's a great time for a clean sweep -- out with the old, in with the new. There might be some hurt feelings or confusion along the way, but nothing you won't be able to handle with a little charm.

Daily Couples:Dial it down a notch, at least for now. Your charm is formidable, you know. Keeping it low key might be more enticing to your sweetie than displaying pyrotechnics.

Daily Singles:This morning, everything seems to be coming up roses -- but by this afternoon, there's a little more going on beneath the surface. Dig in -- especially into your own emotions.

2005-09-07T16:22:00.000-07:00

Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time,
sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her.
Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but thinking of her missing the final episode of your
favourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u wen out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.
Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he/she is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling known asemptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know.
if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait.

ps: quoted from sumwhere.. n im tinking bout this post into my life...

2005-09-07T16:14:00.000-07:00

You are 20.63% jealous!For this test, the average jealousy percentage is 35.54%.251177 people have taken this test to date.
This percentage means that :
•You have very few jealous traits.
•You rarely over-react and have a handle on the severity of situations.
•Whatever jealous attributes you do have will not present a problem in relationships, and will sometimes help

try the jealousy test! its fun...so how jealous are you....
http://tests.studentcenter.org/jealousytest.php

2005-09-07T15:45:00.000-07:00

wokay..In level 5 free access lab now alone, didnt what else to in MRC. Min and correen doing some photoshop thingy for min's blog on her laptop. Feeling quite bored. Deen and terry in bpos. Slacking. Didnt want to contact ifa cause afraid tha she may be angry with me for just now. Aini, ifa and me were going out of shopping arcade when aini opened one door. Ifa went out and i was praising this hair which is quite nice. So engrossed into it, i opened the next door. quite forceful. Hit ifa leg, she almost fell. But her drinks feel a bit on her shirt ah! then i was like..er.. didn know what to do. Her expressions was so fierce and like moody ah. seriously me dont know what to do. It was an accident. Didnt actually meant it mah. Ifa, if youre reading this, I'm sorry.

Lotsa joke have happened the past few days. Lets just talk about some. This one is really funny. Remember i was working last mon with terry? We ended work at around 2 plus. We are already tired and sleepy by then. The tiredness from the weekends ah. anyway back to topic. Terry started his engine, waited for me to board. Me taking my time to ride. went to the bike, put my hand on the seat, apply pressure, wanted to rest for awhile. Didnt know what happen, guess what! terry went off! without me!!! and i thought it was a joke! cause he would normally play this type of games with me like when i lift my legs to sit, he'll move a few metres, and again and again. But not this time!! omg! went off the carpark, there's a stop line...thought he would stop. but no..he checked his right and then vroooooooooooooooooooooooom! he's off to main road. and that point of time, i still thought he was still playing, and would stope at the side road. I ran to the main road ah. heard the engine sound form loud to soft. The next thing i know was, his bike was like 200metres away already, at the traffic light and dont know what the hell he's doing. looking back again and again... then his bike was like parallel to the line already. i Crossed the road so he's turning back. When he came back, both of us were laughing non stop coz it was damn funny. He was like asking me what happened to me? i was like huh? how would i know? u left me behind, duhz! haha.. then he said, i asked you a question on the way out. but no response, thought u didnt hear it, so i asked again but still no reply. then curious to see, scared if i have fell asleep or what. he turned ah! So shocked to see me not there!! kancong already! he thought i disappear into thin air sia! damn bad lah! i asked him, u dint know meh i havent sit? he replied, i waited for you so long already, got pressure then i thought u sit already so i went off.. damn retarded! haha.. then what happen at the traffic light? why ur bike position do funny? oh! i kanchong ah! thought wan to U-turn... siow! lucky no car at that point of time! haha..

this morning also funny. was walking back to bpos with ifa and aini. along the way theres a glass door that sreched about few metres ah. ifa was looking into the mirror to check her hair and walking the same time.. from the start of the door to the other end. guess what happen? she was so engrossed into it and she bumped into a fire extinguisher box! hahahaha! damn fuuny at that point of time!

so many things happened! i love my people! anyway, would like to thank anand for the names and admin number for those players playing this sat! yeah! this sat, we got a match, SBM and SIT..

wah...so bored liao. terry just called me, asking to join them go grassroots club to play pool. So bored. don wan ah. Sorry guys. Feel like missing ifa for the time being. haizz. dont know where she is and stuff. and min, i miss you too! feeling lost when u said that ure going india next week already.... go and come back safely.

2005-09-07T01:14:00.000-07:00

2005-09-06T23:52:00.000-07:00

2005-09-06T21:11:00.000-07:00

Good morning! Wah..stoning now in MRC, feeling quite lethargic and tired. Tiredness brought forward from the weekends. Didnt even have enough time to blog the whole of last week. Was doing survey at clementi everyday, morning, afternoon and even evening. othing much happen anyway so lets not talk about it. haha.
Sat, went for the survey thing at 8. it ended around 11. Then i have to rush to Suntec to work at COMEX 2005, the IT fair ah. Was so busy didnt even had time to eat. 12-9! Didn eat the whole day. Sun had a soccer match at 9 at Fuchun Sec against some SIT freak. We won actually.5-4. Great game and i was worn out already by then. Then had to rush again to work at suntec again, leaving my breakfast. Busy again. Didnt eat again. Reached home at 12.
Got lecture from my parents after that when i told them i went to work instead of doing the survey. I mean they didnt even know anything about this things in skool. so i just didnt bother to elaborate anyway. Was too tired to do so. Saying that this is your attachment lah, fail how and all. Work is not important. Anytime also can. on and on and on......... And they were like asking, wheres the outcome of your work? where's even your pay!? when your pay!? i said i dont know. and theere they go again... chatter chatter chit chit... Coz honestly i dont know when exactly i am getting the pay for the NTUC thing and my weekend job, the pay is abit fucked up. i get one month later. let me explain. if i work form 1-15 August, i will get my pay on 15 SEPT! my parents dont understand. and again, i dont even have the energy to explain ah. lazy, too tired. i told them i got every last month and they were like saying, so where's the money for last month? to them i am supposed to already gotten the money from the month of AUgust, but no.. they taught i was playinh a fool ah. which i dont think i am ah, my hp hp bill came, concession money and all. They told me to pay myself. which i always did. I just kept quiet ah. Then my dad was like, ok, u want to show ur stubborness with me rite, i can also show my stubborness, form tomorrow onwards, ure not getting any pocket money until u pay all those stuffs! CRAP! wtf! and its like end of next week till i get my paY? duhz?!
nonsence. Like i said, too tired to do anything!
hey i blog later. tired already. feeling hungry and weak. havent ate breakfast. where to get money sia like this!! aarrgghh....

2005-08-26T12:55:00.000-07:00

Not feeling that too good today. Coughing and having multiples headaches. Quite tired out for the past few days. Upon reaching MRC, did my project definition for my e-Survey project. Talking bout project, one moer project is added to my group this morning. Guess my group has the most project to settle, this is only week 1!
1. Internal Project- Resesarch on service quality standards on local and overseas companies, by week 3
2.External Project- Singapoe Sports Council thingy, dragging on for quite awhile
3.Group Project- e-Survey project, by week 3
4.Individual Project- Abby software, by week 2
Wah! so stress liao! but then whats got to got to do.. i gonna shorten my slack time and get down to work, finih it as soon as possible and then more slack time at the end of my stopover, by the end of 8 weeks.

Reached MRC, revised the directors briefing and presentation on the first day, cause got a test/quiz at 930am. didn actually manage to get everything in my head. But try very hard to get it in actually. Time for test and the qns are so dumb. Whats MRC? When is it established? the aim and objectives. and some true and false qns.
Got a meeting after that with the supervisor, got informed that the Singapore Sports Council project has been transferred from ARDC to MRC. AARGH!!
Proceed to level one free access lab after that to complete my flash. and guess what, its done! after much effort. Now, left with the storyboards! which fida is trying to help me settle it cuase i'm quite blur about this new software.. haha.. how dumb can that be..
Was in the lab with most of them, aini helped me with some of my prob nad deen just cam cause he actually overslepT! haha... now waiting for him to fininsh his flash then off we go to ang mo kio to eat. Maybe eating kfc. Longing for it! so long never eat.

Something quite bad actually happened yesterday. Me and deen were riding terry's bike around the whole skewl yesterday for 3-4 rounds. When we came back, deen wanted to lock the bike, Just when he turned it, guess what! the key broke into half! yes people! HALF! half was in the key hole and the other half in his hand! shit...didn actually know what happend..felt sorry bad and sorry for terry though... sorry terry.. Its my fault too cause i also rode it..

Now lunchtime!!!! hungry hungry!!! faster people! i'm hyngry...

2005-08-25T15:07:00.000-07:00

Sometimes what you want isnt what you always get but in the end, wha tyou got is much better then what you wanted. So appreciate what you have cause you wont know whats your future hold for ya.. Life is only travelled once. Today's moment becomes tomorrow's memory. Enjoy every moment, good or bad, because the gift of life, it LIFE itself.

Guess where i am now, who i am with, what the hell am i doing, how did it actually happened and why... hahakz.. feeling bored lah. Anyway, let me answer my own questions.
Where: Level 5 free access lab
With whom: Alone..sad to say
What: Doing flash..trying to really really finish it, eventhough have lotsa prob
How: Dont know
Why: Dateline MON!!

Anyway, wanted to follow ifah and aini to ang mo kio to have luch, was craving for kfc, long time never eat and its on promotion. But then, my clique felt lazy to travel and decided to eat at food junction. So drop by food junction to eat lunch there. Discussed about later last minute BBQ at BEn's apartment and cracking some jokes with ben.. Then proceed to Ms canteen cause "onebody" wanted to have some eye exercise, looking for is eye candy. Haha..have lotsa time to waste so went to slack there.
Met chermaine, fat, nat and two more gerls, didnt actually memorize their names... from SIT. Talking aimlessly about anything and everything..jobs..BBQ..Blogs.. funny.. esp with chermaine! She got US to write something at the back of her book with a marker. Just doing it for fun and she happily wrote something at the back of shirt with a silver marker saying..."hello its me. Cheers." haha..siow this gerl. But nyway that shirt is quite old already, got new sets of SW shirts so dont actually mind anyway.
Called ifah to ask where she was and asked whether she wanted to join us too, but she' busy with her flash thingy. Then that reminded me of my unfinished business. Dropped by BPOS to say hi and then back to MRC to see how everything in there is and then off to access lab.
Well, deen, firhan and terry just entered, so not that bored anymore. Terry blasting his songs on the coomputer and this is what i called fun and chill.. Haha..damn fun!
kla got to get back to werk now... blog again later

2005-08-25T08:48:00.000-07:00

<--i!...Greatest storyEver told...!i-->

Thank you for this moment
I gotta say how beautiful you are
Of all the hopes and dreams I could have prayed for
Here you are
If I'd have one dance forever
I'd take you by the hand
Tonight It's you and I together
I'm so glad I'm your man

And If I lived a thousand years, you know
I'd never could explain
The way I lost my heart to you that day
But if destiny decided i should look the other way
Then the world would never know
The greatest story ever told
And did I tell you that I love you tonight.

I dont hear the music when I'm looking in your eyes
But i feel the rhytm of your body close to mine
It's the way we talk that's send me
Its the way we'll always be here
Your kiss, your preety smile you know i die for
You're all i need

<--i!...Fido-Dido...!i-->
End of lyrics, hope that special someone can actually know whats deep in my heart.. hope destiny wont decide that i have to look the other way, coz I would love to tell the greatest story ever told...

2005-08-25T08:37:00.000-07:00

Hey good morning people.. just reached in MRC. Stoned already after the short sleep just now. Around 2.5 hours of dead sleep. After waking up, its not that bad actually. Not tired just okay for the day. Ready to kick some arse and running around again. There's a meeting behind me for group 3 actually. Just waiting for the supervisor to go and then me also go meet the rest, to slack..and see how terry is doing in bpos.. Can tahan wan lah both of us.. Havent had breaksfast, stomach feeling empty now, first thing came in MRC, blog, mind also...empty.. haiya.. anyway got jinghui to write me the lyric of a wonderful song. She got the time to do it for me..TPRD slack rite gerl? haha...anyway thanks a lot...

2005-08-25T04:40:00.000-07:00

Just got back from work, now at terry's crib watching live match of bolton and newcastle. .. Guess what! Arsenal won fulham 4 goals to 1! Great..its been awhile since arsenal get this type of scores. Watch the highlights and was quite happy by thierry henry's performance, he's on top for today's game i guess...
Niway back to werk. We are actually supposed o clear everything from the cholcolate section racks, i partnered with terry. Then we are supposed to choose our products form all the chocolate there to rearrage it for different shelves and different levels lah basically. It took us till 2 plus to settle everything. Had mcspicy doubles for supper/breakfast.. took the quite expensive one cause i aint got to pay anything..haha.. after dinner was just touching up the places, cleaning up.. talked cock and then BOOM! go home.. all the way from tampines mall to serangoon. Well, got to ride and tompang terry along the way and it was damn fun! although i haven got the licence, but i got a provisonal licence right? haha.. does it matter? took the risk lah actually...
Guess terry is sleeping already behind me on the floor, or he may be watching tv or even the other way round? haha.. fida accompanied me hrough sms till late 1 plus.. just needed some company.. bu i guess i\ll still forgo what i an doing..
School starting soon at 830, dont know whther to take a nap or not, guess wont be able to make it on time.. too ired maybe but no, the job was not that tiring.. its actually very high a pay that you can ever get... 6.5 hours for 70bucks? haha.... free supper some more...just packing and tada, money comes in.. cheh!
gonna be quite free later on during MRC, supervisor gonna go somewhere to setle something in he morning, when he comes back, guess what, he has to go for invigilation.. wadever you called it lah.. sometimes lecturers are so stupid that they actually tell us whetehr they are coming or no.. so i am taking tat chance to do somethig.. and guess what, he even told us that.. for the whole of next week, he's on ;eave and cant wait for my batch to take over the admin position.. and then... nobody will now how hafid will thing and lie, and cheat.. haha... missing onebody but telling myself to move on cause ... haiya..forget about it, donwanna talk about it... case closed!
klah, gonna watch soccer...to all those still sleeping including terry, GOOD MORNIN!! WAKE UP! accompany me lehz...sianz zhi puah...

<-i!..Fido-Dido..i!-> out...

2005-08-24T18:53:00.000-07:00

Fugg..I have quite made up my mind to actually give up going for fida. After what happened at the south canteen earlier on, I am quite pissed. Dont feel like doing anything and just wanna be alone. First it was the intention of sending a msg without me knowing it followed by calling her without my presence. I mean what the hell are you doing. I just don like it and i will never will. This type of things is where i always changed me perception about things that i am doing. Now i dont have to do anything about it. I dont wanna sya anything also but as a fren... aargh never mind, i'm not the one who like to talk about this. And now i'm out and chilling, thanks to...
whatever happens will happen... Its not my interest to know anymore.. Ciaoz!

2005-08-24T14:06:00.000-07:00

Back in MRC, my stopover.. quite empty i should say. Its so unlike me to actually sit in here alone, something ahppened just and i dont actually like it. Quite pissed. Had some ice breaker games to make the people here in MRC get to know each other betta and actually work together as a team, not as an induvidual. Me, correen, nafis and hisham was the game coordinators for the whole event. We had to actually come out with games and conduct them. Start the ball rolling i should say. By the time the games were over, it was already lunchtime. Called min to ask where she was and terry too. Min was at level one with mel and terry with the rest, deen ifah and aini. We went then proceed to South canteen. I didn want to at first but deen said he really wanted to go eat there. Then i said, u better not have anything else other thatn that cause he may want to kacau with fida form SIT, trying to take the chance to conincidentally bumped into her i guess. We were talking along the way when i learnt a new phrase! and they said its for me..wtf..haha.. here goes : JACK OF ALL TRADES, MASTER of NONE! hahakz.. i took quite some time to actually absorb..explainations after explainations. Then comes a few more phrases which i took quite some time to absorb too, quite slow lah.. here are some of them, "If i have a letter "HRT" and would have a chance to choose "EA" to get "heart" or "U" to get "hurt", I would rather choose "U" to get "hurt" then have a heart without U, huh? haha and one more is.. "If i could live 1000 years, you know i could never explain the way i lost my heart to you that day but if destiny decided i should looked the other way, then the worls would never know the greatest story ever told" get it?kla kla u guys are fast kay but not me..hmm..not fair wan..
then Min wanted to forward one latter msg to fida..trying to act to look at the msg which i later find out she's trying to find fida's name. I dont like it and i mean it, I HATE it when u do that min. Dont play my game. Dont play with fire if you think u cant handle it well later. I just dont like it. Full Stop. Dont ask me why. Imagine if i did that for MR? I bet u'll even scream and wont even tok to me..
Forget it..i gtg... Ciaoz! Blogging tml...

2005-08-24T12:08:00.000-07:00

<---i!....hi....!i--->
welcome to my new blog. Hope its better than my previous. Move on. Time for a change, time for a new adaptation. Like what my friends will advise me when i'm always down and out, move on hafid, adapt to new things and there's a reason for everything that happened. Well i guess its true in some way lah that things do happened for a reason. You may not notice it but somehow somewhere somewhat it happens. Life is unpredictable and its fair actually. You cant always stay on top cause it may not be fair to those who is always at the bottom. Life will actually take that best opportunity and make us feel what the people at the bottom are feeling but on the other hand, the people at the bootom may have the chance to experience life up there. Flip Flap! haha.. from this, people actually learn a lot of things, gain a lot of experiences and the feelings involved so as to prepare themselves in their future endevours. As for me, I have tasted both ups and downs of life. Happiness, disappointment and lotsa things. Some are really bad while some are really that happening. But whatever it is, I must learn to move on and treat all this as a test of life assigned by The Almighty. He give us people and situations in our lives for a reason. Only HE knows. Move on and live life like it should be. Look at the bright side of life.

2005-08-24T10:00:00.000-07:00

Welcome to my new blog! No more derrtyfroggy but eeeedeeeeyert people! as in idiot? get it.. anyway, first and foremost i would to thank CORREEN, yuanzhi gf, ahem! who helped me with this blog. Lucky she's in my same stopover. Got her to help me with this thang after min got her new blog. She's like so used to it and everything is done within a few minutes, just that i'm the one who is making it longer to design the blog, the positions and fonts all the thing. U guys should me rite? I love to desogn and everything is proper and nice situation so that people will appreciate my work. yeah!
Thanks babe!